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Confessions of a Control Freak



Hi, my name is Shelly, and I am a control freak.  

I can usually hide my controlling tendencies under the disguise of being concerned.  It's an easy thing to do, and quite frankly a natural tendency for modern life today.  But, none-the-less, it's sinful.  

And messed-up.  And crazy.  And extremely exhausting.  

Whatever you want to call it, I'm calling a truce, because honestly I'm tired.  

God has been slowly, patiently and graciously unveiling to me how much of a control freak I am and in the process revealing this truth:  I am actually not in control.  He is.  

I'm grateful for the slow process because there was so much that had to be undone I'm afraid my little sad-self would not have survived the peeling away.  Sanctification hurts.  When you are faced with the ugly truth of who you are... Let's just say I'm thankful God gives abundant grace.  

Believing you're in control is an illusion the enemy uses as a distraction.  When you are distracted you are useless and ineffective.  In my personal experience when you are desperate to hold on to control, you are usually spinning out of it.

In other words, you're a hot mess.  

So, I've been making a list a things I'm not in control of and things that I am.  It's sort of a bullet point of "know your actual place" for dummies.  Now, I'm not calling anyone else but me dumb, so don't go there.  But maybe you'll see yourself in some of these and we can share one another's burdens and lift each other up.  

I tried to narrow the vast valley down to three that I think are the most relevant for me.  Feel free to share and add your own.